They say 2012 is the end of the world. I don't know who is the "they", but if it doesn't come out like they predict I guess we'll all party like nothing till 2013 anyway.

Trying to do research for one of my assignments involving building a model for a building. Have a gazillion tabs but I just can't find what I want. ARGHHHHHHH. I have totally underestimated the time needed to do this. Dare not slack for the rest of the assignments liao...

I passed my BTT!! The funny thing was I got the date totally wrong. I thought it was on Sat when it was on Thursday. So imagine my shock when halfway through class my phone alarm sounded and told me the test was in an hour's time. I was like, oh shit I haven't revised since I thought I could wait till Friday, gg. But between waiting a month more to rebook and trying to pass, I'd take the latter.

Thank goodness it landed during lunch break so I was able to attend. But still I got there 15 mins late cuz the lecturer just wouldn't stop talking even though class ended and I was too paiseh to leave halfway through his enthusiastic speech. Anyway I gave up and told him I had to go. By then the test had started already.

The examiner almost didn't let me take the test until I explained the reason. Haha. He gave me a really grumpy look and said, " no extra time for you". Meh. Managed to finish 20mins before the end of the test anyway, cuz there were much lesser questions than the evaluation. And I passed!!!!! Wheeeeee. So lucky lol. I think I scraped through. Forgot some of the signs also.

Back to researching my Shinto shrines....

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Sorry for the lack of updates. Been extremely busy trying to juggle with my new schedule, and trying to incorporate my daily activities inside it. It's really tiring, but I feel so happy and alive that I am finally doing what I had aspired to do, and in a sense it has become a neccessity to do (since I paid the fees) rather than just a hobby that I could just do whenever I feel like it. Weird description, I know. It's like, my life is dependent on it and I'm enjoying it at the same time. Weird huh. Haha.

It's a 5 day week from Mon to Fri, and mostly I end at 4pm. I'm getting along with my classmates quite well, it's only been 3 days since we first met but we are starting to chit chat more often and I feel more comfortable around them. It's my first being surrounded by people who can draw, so I do feel a pressure to work harder and outperform, but I don't mind. In fact it's pretty good practise as I can really develop my skills.

For this semester, we had introductory modules like basic life drawing, principles of animation, basics of maya, sculpting, concept design and all that. My favourites so far are probably life drawing and anatomy. Tmr's the first lesson for sculpting and digital art, hope they are going to be just as awesome :)

Intending to buy a new wacom tablet... I realised that my current one while still functioning is a little inadequate in terms of drawing space and sensitivity. I could live with it if I wanted to but if the school if going to use the better ones I had better start getting used to them as well. Getting poor buying all my school materials lol. Including all the cartridge paper, pencils, what, some kneadable eraser... and many more to come. Later during the sem we have to buy oil clay or something like that which costs a bomb too. Meh.

Assignments for the semester, exercises and homework already given to us. They were really right when they said it's going to be extremely busy and you won't have much time for other stuff. It sounds daunting, but I still feel excited. I think I'm still like in honeymoon mood for getting into the school or something. Haha.

Ok sleeping. The school's schedule is really strict, can't stay up late anymore. Actually blogging at a time like this already means I'm sleeping later than usual... drastic change from being in SOC... will try to update again. Gd nite!

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I've finally concluded that the lesser responsibilities you take up, the happier you tend to be. Figures why bummers have lesser eyebags, good nights of sleep and get satisfaction in life over someone else who has to constantly worry over the smallest things and getting things done right.

RL-ing was never an ambitious plan to gain status or fame in wow for me. The reason why I did was because if nobody did, I figured everything would just go downhill and it would disappoint others who were interested, which was quite a pity. But I think after giving it a try, it was never a role suited for me. Coming from maple where people took boss runs seriously, I think in many ways I couldn't adapt to how my current guild functions. It mystifies, confuses and annoys me just how people treat an event that requires much coordination and communication as if it was the easiest thing to organise on the fly.

There was never once I felt happy playing the role, and having to do it with RL friends made me feel like I strained relationships. Of course, one should never mix their real life with games, but that's only politically correct. No matter how hard you try, people will still form their interactions with you based partially through the game, so i.e. this is bullshit, don't believe it.

If people go, yeah just do that, nobody asked you to do it in the first place - to those people, I daresay they have little or no experience trying to RL. It's not a glorious job. More often than not, you have to juggle with discontentment, people raging either in front or behind your back, and all the other little issues that aren't easily dismissed. The phrase "you can't please everyone" comes out in full force here, and there are really some hard decisions to be made, which further sours things.

I'd like to have my bummer lifestyle back, if you please. Just being a simple and happy girl playing her character, and enjoying her game without worries. And after complaining to my friend for the (n*100000)th time (sry dude for having to endure my QQing lol), I finally realised this is just the inevitable.

I always have a craving for desserts. I think somewhere inside me, there's a 2nd stomach saved for occasions like this after dinner. Haha.

Was talking to my friend yesterday and decided to make almond jelly. It wasn't really anything specific, but just hearing him mention it and recalling how I had that superb one in some goodness-knows-where place in Chinatown made me feeling like eating it again. Haha.

Waiting for Dad to come home so that we can get the ingredients together... yesterday when I asked him if he had the ingredients at home he just gave me that stupid almond instant powder... no way I'm using that!!!

On a mini K-pop roll, downloading old songs into my playlist. /random

My life feels rather messed up for the week. Been sleeping late, and as a result no exercise and waking up late.

:'<

I can't wait for school to start to have some semblance of order in my life. Need motivation... and my friend says I have some disorder called short bowel syndrome cause I eat and still lose weight. Speechless...

Was browsing through songs to download on youtube today and got wrapped up listening to all those songs. Adele's songs caught my attention most and I ended up spending most of the day just listening, and googling out the lyrics.

Many of her songs in the album made me recall the past times with him. As I listened, the emotions started to swell up and my eyes got blurry. I should have stopped then, but somehow I just kept going on, as if I was caught up with the current and couldn't do anything else.

It has been roughly over a year. Do I think of him? Maybe. I wonder how he's doing once in a while. Do I still love him? Time has dulled the emotions enough. But I still cry, when I think back of the moments and how it all ended. It feels paradoxical, crying over losing love when I don't want to go back to it again.

Many around me have asked if I was going to look for a new boyfriend. My reply was always, no. But to put it more accurately, it's not that I don't want to be in love, it's just that I haven't found someone I want to be with at the moment. I have to say, I'm not really easy to talk to and am quite the introvert. Somemore the guy has to fit my "criteria". I wonder how am I ever going to find a guy this way. Haha. Maybe it's time to pray I'll meet someone in my new school (so impossibru methinks).

I guess it's always good to cry once in a while when you are feeling down, for whatever reason it may be. Feeling a little better now.

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Was on the way home last night when mum msged me that papa was worried over the opportunity cost of me taking the diploma. *sigh* I'm not sure how to even begin typing out my thoughts, but it's roughly along the lines of "unsupportive all along" and "why now when I've already enrolled".

I came home, and talked to mama first. She got a little teary eyed as she was telling me what happened, with papa flaring up at her when she asked if he had talked to me to clear his doubts. But at the end of it all, she said she was ok with me taking the diploma. I guess like mother like daughter, really. Mum used to work as a architect, and she loves to draw. So when she came with me to visit the school and view the students' work she probably understood my passion.

On the other hand, my dad was the silent one. Despite my insistence in taking up the diploma ever since I was in my final year, he never agreed with it but neither did he openly oppose it. It was an indirect disagreement of sorts. Sometimes, when I talk to him about the future in general, he would tend to promote the "right" and safer way, which was to just be a teacher and settle down, get a steady pay, save for my future etc. I can't remember just how many times I've heard of such conversations and even my sister, who tried to persuade him on my behalf by telling him it's ok if people don't do it that way gets exasperated with him.

I'm not saying that papa is unsupportive, for as much as he doesn't agree with my decision he still loves me very much as his daughter. He still sends me to the school if I need to make a trip there, if I need anything in preparation for my diploma he would still do it for me, and of course I appreciate that. But it saddens me sometimes over the small things like him not wanting to come and have a look at the school, or not wanting to ask me how are things going on and what I needed to do.

Well, at least he asked when I was starting school yesterday. Guess that's a start. *sigh*

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Today was kind of like a crash and burn day. Was very tired out from the previous 2 days where I had to go with lack of sleep. As usual, started off the week with zerging out my points before I can turn to other activites... so... very little sleep. =/

Thankfully there's a maintainence now so I get to rest for an hour. Gonna sleep it off. Just broke my nice schedule of not playing too much =( Oh well... maybe I'll take it as giving myself a treat for sticking to my healthy lifestyle schedule... haha.. at least I still sleep at the normal hours. Guess I won't be exercising tmr as well, too tired.

Gonna head down to the school to submit my acceptance tmr... *yawn*

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So I went back in, and to my surprise I had to draw again. This time testing me on concept art. Instructions was to create a character outfitted with moves/skills/styled after 5 items given on the paper, complete with a description about my creation, 100 words.

I flipped the paper and went, omfg. The five items were a rubber duckie, a set of cutlery, a boiling kettle, a blender and a hairbrush. Very interesting indeed...

So I thought for awhile and initially, the idea was to create some household superhero, throwing rubber duckie missiles at naughty children who mess up their houses and wielding all these... equipment to solve household problems. Then I thought about it further and decided it was too superficial, so I decided to go a little more abstract as it was kind of a boring concept... not thinking out of the box. Since the paper said I could deconstruct the items in any way I like, I selected bits and pieces of each item and created this martial artist adorned with various parts of it.

Took the brush and knife to form a polearm... the handle of the kettle for her shoulderpad... the cover of the blender for her belt, hair accessory from rubber duckie. Theme that I set for myself was some ancient chinese era... in any case, I ended up overshooting the time slightly (was writing the description when the girl came in to tell me time was up) because I got a little too engrossed unlike the first part, lol. Took me like 5 mins to think of a description and I couldn't help giggling at myself as I wrote it, it sounded so passable but ridiculous.

Then came the last part which was the lecturer interviewing me. He didn't really critque my artwork much, I guess he already looked through beforehand... he did say on the whole I showed some technique, but of course not the best out there. Asked me on my reason for wanting to be here... background... etcetc. It wasn't that hard an interview per se. I guess my passion really showed cause he sounded quite positive to what I said... and the interview overshot because occasionally we derailed to talk about other stuff about animation, lol.

Finished the interview. Was told that I would be mailed my results in 7 day's time. But interestingly the admin asked me to wait and disappeared to find the lecturer who stayed back in the room where we had the interview. Then later she came back and just said, " You passed". I was a little stunned initially, because I hadn't expected such a fast result. Anyway the next half an hour was a blur, getting papers, calling my parents about the result and basically just revelling in the outcome.

So... 2 more years of student life, and much more fun to come :)

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