college
Friday, July 29, 2005 | 10:42 PM | 0 hearts♥
college days have become one degrading day after another. it gets so depressing. its like, i want to study, but no matter how much i try i really cant get the information to my head. like in physics i slept in 3/4 of the lectures so i dunno anything. in econs i just duno how to apply the theories to my assignments and tests. maths, im plain lazy to work on it. and i dun do my revisions as i hoped.
im disappointing my teachers. im disappointing my parents. worse of all, im disappointing myself. its useless to harp on the fact that moaning will do me any justification but so what. its not like a miracle will happen and i can recite physics formulas with a snap of my fingers.
after school i stay back till so late i barely can make it to dinner with my parents unless they fetch me. and its like lately i dun have to the chance to communicate with them much. but usually during dinner time im just plain exhausted to talk. i sleep in the car journeys. when i get home and finish bathing it would be ard 9 plus. and i need to complete homework for tmr so i do my stuff to 11, maybe even 12. you know why? actually it was supposed to be ard 10 plus i finish. but halfway thru i fell asleep doing my assignment. im so pathetic lolx.
my grades for last term wasnt satisfying either. i dun think i scored well for my languages. my gawd.
i think i need a break. but how can i have a break when common test is just less than 2 weeks away? and i have so much stuff to do. camps, SU, PW meetiings, trainings you name it. and i oso have to keep up with my part time. tho its just once a week. ha.........
and i sleep so late every night and i wake up in the mornings at 6 to go to school. my eyes are freaking tired and i end up sleeping in my tutorials and lectures. the best was during physics tutorial. totallly refreshed. ahhahahaha. quite lame tho. i mean it isnt really the time to sleep right? lolx.
alright. i guess i just have to motivate myself. argh and with NDP rehearsal its a killer task. okie... i wanna go bathe and sleep. have to spend one night's energy on some crazy dancing tmr. but im having breakfast with my classmates. thats something to look forward to=)
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