comparisons.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006 | 8:47 PM | 0 hearts♥
the new year didnt exactly feel like a new year at all, when i compared it to the previous ones, especially lsat year. it was such a far cry. in the morning we woke up and got ready to my grandma's house. (father's side) now i usually dont communicate very well with my relatives over there, firstly due to my lack of understanding of hokkien. talk to me in hokkien and you can be sure i'll go find a translator before coming back to you. so this language barrier was one big problem. secondly, i hardly meet any of these relatives except in those bigger occasions, like my grandma's birthday, new year. umm. i think just these two. and im not one who loves to initiate conversations or can hold one very well. for my reunion dinner, i didnt even talk to my second aunt who sat beside me. because i vividly remembered when she came to talk with me about results during my first three months, i didnt know how acadamic people really take their exams, and what spells a good result. uh. refering to her son. so she told me a certain number, and i just went ahead and said:"oh... thats good what." o man. was i ever so wrong. she immediately went "GOOD? you call this GOOD? its barely a pass?!" and i went "uhhh...... okie." i duno if it was due to her high expectations, or it was really that her son didnt do well. so i just nodded my head and left the conversation to my mother who was nearby. zzz.
back to the subject, it was a totally quiet affair. chinese new year in my grandma's house is sort of boring (no offense) due to language barriers and little opportunities to meet. however it sort of went worse this year. firstly, many of my relatives arrived very late, say an hour or two. namely they were my eldest and second aunt. secondly, my second uncle had to go off in a hurry right after the lunch because another relative of theirs was picking them up to go off somewhere, so they had no choice but to leave early. thirdly, my cousins usually will play cards, not gamble, but usually, it would be uno. personally i dont really like uno cuz it can take the energy out of you when you have to keep drawing cards, and it can get so longgg. duh. anyway, this year, my two youngest cousins whose house we were visiting; they did this banner that spelled "uno challenge 2006". granted that it wasnt really pretty, but the effort was there. they did it because last year, almost all the cousins went crazy when we competed in uno. (not me, btw. i said ALMOST.) point was, since my aunts arrived so late that day, very little cousins played, so it turned out to be boring, and my second uncle had to leave early, plus there was lunch and everything... the mood wasnt even there. very disappointing. i felt sorry for my cousins.
worse was, i realised in the car when we were going to my mother's side, we didnt even take the family photo. =(
has it really gotten to a point that it gets so bad?
my mother's side was much better, however comparing to last year, it wasnt as nice of course. we went to my eldest aunt's house. first family to reach. so kiasu. but i dont really blame my parents. i think they didnt enjoy themselves earlier on too. haiz. later... my cousins slowly came one by one. and we gambles. urgh i won only 10 bucks. so little compared to last year! and i left the table halfway due to some stupid person. and i didnt want to go back, and just looked at everybody playing happily. i just ended up watching dumb variety shows on tv, chatted with my cousin who amazingly doesnt gamble, played with my niece with cards and jokes...ARGH. i should be gambling!! not doing this!!
dinner was nice as usual... but i didnt have a second bowl cuz abit paiseh. end up having supper at home.
anyway my looking forward to the second part of the day was totally spoiled by the stupid somebody. thats why, this year's celebration is just downright lousy for me. if i dont gamble, there arent any cousins to talk with except for the one that doesnt gamble... im not trying to complain, but it would be nice if there were more. and others who dont have a huge age gap with me, say 7 to 10 plus years. well, this rocks. i should have brought something to entertain myself.
when you grow up, you start to lose the innocence and your freedom. what may seem like some fun stuff to you becomes a bore. what you can just talk about sounds stupid for your age, or uncomfortabe to talk about. and everyone grows up. everyone changes. everyone starts to behave differently. you dont know how to talk to them like before. like i cant talk to you about cartoons because ive grown up right? same for you. besides, i doubt if they watch them anyway. duh. and sometimes, im just plain lazy to act.. uh. mature for my age. lol. i shall not go further about this.
second day, my aunts came over for mahjong. usually on this day, my cousins wont come. when we were still young, they can really swarm the house. but now, everyone grows up and starts to have their own life. one will pop by occasionally, but even i dont know what to do together anymore. cuz i doubt she loves ps2 as much as i do. haha. and im not really that interested into the her world of fashion, love, abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. lucky. this year she overslept as she partied waaaaayyyyy too hard into the night. haha. okie la, its not that i really dont have anything to do with her, nor is it that i dont like her, just that, well we have all become different. haiz. lucky that day he came over, else i think i will really have nothing to do. cuz firstly, internet can become very boring fast, i dont play gameboys, my ipod only has 4 games, my ps2 has dissappeared and my father doesnt rmbr where he kept it, and going out myself, sounds so LONER!!!!!!!!!! i hope ryan comes to read my blog. he will like this.. haha.
dinner was okie, the curry was nice, i mean for the potatoes at the bottom. had chocolate cake... and i got the hang of mahjong. NOW i know why whenever i ask people how to get a winning combination, they will always say "there are many kinds." kns!!!!!! they didnt tell me its actually some sort of 3-3-3-3-2 combination la! and last time i thought must have certain tiles then can win. my mother keep on laughing until she was red. zzz...lol. and then i did a kuku thing during the game, but it ended up that i still won. haha. dun wan say le.
today, i went to the temple to pray.... cuz the dragons have some sort of clash with a certain god... so go pray that this year will be good for me... i think thats the gist of it. think its the da shui yea (the yea duno how to spell.. haha) later went back home to sleep again, cuz we woke up really early for this. from 11.. slept to 4. watched samurai 7.... its very nice so far. yeah... and rotting now.. dun feel like doing homework.
i hate it when it is school tomorrow. a dismal feeling.