troubled times.
Friday, January 20, 2006 | 11:06 PM | 0 hearts♥
troubled.fine. im not caring anymore. im so fed up of this. im not caring ANYMORE. all the time and energy spent and i dont feel really appreciated although i try not to think of it. sometimes i wonder if it was really there in the first place.
why am i getting so angry over the little things. things that had never taken up my attention in the past now just gets to me so fast. i dont like the me now. i miss the old me.
i need to compose myself, maybe kick away some stuff and just be the old me for a day. maybe. if my life ever lets me now. i just hate weekends where my thoughts will tend to wander to so many areas that were shoved in the back of my head during school, and now im forced to think about it, since my head is so blank.
again, im so sick of it. im not going to do it anymore. im not. im not. im not. i WILL not. damn.