pilot pen
Wednesday, March 15, 2006 | 8:51 PM | 0 hearts♥
and today marks the end of my participation in the pilot pen competition. forever since im turning 18 this year. im feeling a little sad... cuz its like the little parts of badminton in my life are being taken away from me slowly... first this... and very soon it will be the nationals... i wonder where i will go from there. maybe i might stop badminton for good? it scares me to think that one major part of my life stops when the rest of me goes on. nvr mind... just focus on what i still have now=)pilot pen this year was the most enriching for me. i finally got some use from it after so many times of participation. or maybe, it was because its my final year. whatever.
yeah i lost today on both events in the second round. my singles and doubles. im half satisfied with my results, and half disappointed. talking about that satisfaction, im just happy that i made it to the second round with my own skills in the doubles, and just winning someone whom i thought not possible was a very nice thing to have. although we lost today against the first seed, i did try my best and at least there was a fight la, and a few long rallies here and there. not bad... they sweated okie. haha. the past few times i played those seeds never sweat. heh. so crap... but it wasnt easy for us. lol... and furthermore my smallest toenail broke during singles and i wanted to clip it off but it was still stuck to my culticle... stupid la. caused me to hobble when i move back whenever exerted alot of pressure on my right foot to catch the shuttle. crap, crap, crap.
for the singles. funnily my opponent never showed up in the first round. duno why. so it was considered a walkover and i got into the next round. before that, my friend just scared me to death by saying my opponent was some super fierce girl and took me to take care in chinese. crap. end up walkover. but im pretty relieved.... haha. well today was second round. against the 12th seed. another crappish linesup. i thought i was really going to get trashed till i met her today. then i found out that actually, i could put up a fight with her. i could even win. but then again... argh. i lost to my own mentality of doubting my skills when i was leading her 7-1. it happened halfway true the game. i just suddenly thought: what if all my current points are all through luck and not by me... maybe she will eventually win me. i think if i told my coach, i sure get zham. lol. 7-1!!!! its me leading!!!! and it ended up with her winning the match 11-8,11-8. zzz....... so i was pretty disappointed that i didnt treasure the chance when it was there in front of me. and to my own stupid mentality. why should i even bother thinking so much over the points when i just needed 4 more to win. i should have just focused on winning.
so. i felt disappointed with myself. but im also quite happy that i did give a good game. at least i got 8 points which is considered pretty alright. and the doubles also, though it was really trashing. at least i found my weakness which is myself... at least i know ive improved. well thats good=) now i can work on it for my nationals, and hopefully i'll do better? HEE. and for the very first time in pilot pen i could proudly enter the grounds as someone who's worked her way into that right as a player, not a spectator=)
aiyah, another pity. cant kick huai an out of the team. he bet that i wont last till thursday. dang. today is wed. i should have won that singles! arggggggggghhhhhhhhh.
interestingly, i encountered many things on the way home. after watching a few more doubles, we took the bus back to clementi. then we decided to buy bubble tea. its an addiction. lol. when im happy, i drink it. when im sad, i drink it also. haha... anyway... some people asked us to watch a free movie at a certain place on the way. when i first saw them, HAH they confirmed my suspicions. especially when i heard what the movie was about la. its about life's end? then again, why do i need to know about life's end when i can do better by living it fruitfully right now? why look so far when cant even notice the little things around you in the present? anyway we nicely told them a lie that we had training that coincided with their movie date and time. LOL. eh, i was being nicel okie. usually i will just give these people attitude and say i dont want to go... and one more sentence la. its not vulgarities k... lol. i'll just keep mum for this.
okie...then we reached the bubble tea store. and there was this grp of boys, and one of them was queuing up. and that grp was hysterically laughing at that boy who was queuing. i was wondering whats so funny when jessica pointed to his sleeve. there was CHEWING GUM!!!!
dont get the picture? okie i'll decipher it for you=)
see, this guy was leaning against the pillar while queuing, and when it moved up, he moved away... and realised that some chewing gum was stuck to his sleeve. how come? some cute person actually pasted his/her chewing gum onto the pillar and the poor unsuspecting guy just leaned on it. LOL. then he was like oh no and was helpless cuz he doesnt have anything to clear it. his friends told him to move away so that the line will break but the bubble gum just continued to stretch for another good metre... loooooooooool... and the guy was requesting for tissue but his friends were busy laughing their asses off. both of us were laughing behind him also... but i felt sorry for him and gave him a tissue which he was super duper grateful. but it became worse cuz when he tried to clean it off, the gum wouldnt come off the sleeve. instead, it caused the tissue paper to stick to it... lol... then he ended up with the gum still on his sleeve, with bits of tissue stuck to it.... so poor thing.
and yaya i met chin wei while collecting my bubble tea!!!! haha. he was about to celebrate his friend's bdae today with his classmates. what a coincidence. and maybe i'll go watch your dragon boat competition la, haha. dont say i nvr give face okie. who would want to go to the sunday finals when your team isnt there? like so extra-.-
finally back home. im partially tired but im already looking forward to tomorrow when badminton camp starts! will only be back by friday=)