thoughts.
Monday, March 06, 2006 | 10:43 PM | 0 hearts♥
today.was a happy day.
i duno why.
everything just felt right? something liddat la. school and practice were perfectly in tune or something. though i still slept in econs.
AND. I GOT TO BATHE AFTER PRACTICE!!!! thats a double bonus. gosh i feel so freaking comfortable now=) no more stink till tmr when i gotta bathe again. woo hoo!
I just feel like being a very obedient child and blog and do my homework and listen to mama and go to sleep early and..... BAH. forget it. lol.
read a councillors blog. wun say who, but i think my ex classmates would know la. so obvious now with this sentence-.-
what can i say. i do admit that i am not exactly fond of councillors. in fact, many many, the majority of them. im not saying that after i read his blog, i finally had a glimpse of his situation where its a really lonely life out there. i knew it all along, but i choose to see it that he decided to walk down that path himself and sort of disliked it. its like, you dun like councillors and yet someone you know decides to be one. god. i duno what to say.
hmmmm. but i am feeling abit guilty of how i treat him.
small little stuff.
like a simple hi or buy.
the valentines day gift, which i felt rather bad over seriously.
times at the table each morning. gone now.
times when we gathered.
i think everyone sort of drifted away. i really cant explain my thoughts. its like, everyone leaves him but its expected but you cant help but feel sad. so many buts. zzz.
i dun know much about the councillors, but the surface is enough to make me stay far far away from them. so many politics. all the backstabbings. even by NON COUNCILLORS. yuck.
its so hard to find acceptance when everyone just rejects you outright on the account that you are a councillor.
i think i should do better than that. i guess he really do need friends at such a critical moment. one part of me says that you deserve it, but another part tells me to try and put myself into his shoes. would i have done the same thing? hmmmmx. that. i dont wish to consider. i should just consider myself fortunate that i dun have to experience this nuts in my jc life.
hell, every councillor would probably say the same thing now. but it doesnt mean i have to feel bad over them like i do to him. cuz? i knew him for a long 5 years. its the 6th year now.
really, really random thoughts here. i think i should go and sleep. training was tiring after all.
*snores*