flouting the rule i made to myself
Saturday, July 22, 2006 | 2:11 PM | 0 hearts♥
i realised how easily i get sidetracked from the things i want to do. such as playing badminton and table tennis and wasting an entire day's worth of study yesterday.
then again. it wasnt really a waste. i did enjoy myself and its good to have some time off to relax. just treating it as a one day break.
if i ever asked the entire jj population who has started studying, i would be swept away by a sea of hands.
of all the j2 blogs that ive seen, i have not seen one that has not yet mentioned the word mugging or studying in their recent posts. awesome.
just went to see my CT for the PTA. typical stuff said. need to schedule... need to organise... need to work hard... and most significantly he attributed my drastic drop in grades to my sports activities which were basically non exsistent since the june holidays started.
i dont know what to say to that. does a span of 3 weeks mean that you cant get good enough grades? or maybe the tournament has more far reaching effects than i had expected. or simply put, i slacked until i started to panic.
and my dad goes " why to think when your sister got CCD in jc i was already complaining, and you can get OOD!" i frowned but i didnt have anything to say. anyway some plans are being drawn up for me. hope i survive the three months.
lets just say. i hate to study. i dont love reading and cramming books at all. i wouldnt mind, and might even like it if you asked me to read the notes and memorise, but i hate the fact that i have to answer questions and sit for the exams using that knowledge. just like yesterday's case study test, i was perfectly ok in reading and memorising the stuff, but when the test started, my suff just jumbled up and i had holes in my econs memory. wtf. exam jitters. go away la. i dont need you.
i miss the life i used to have in j1 despite how lousy my grades were that time. everything single thing. the things i like to do, the people i love to be with etc(not in school tho). now i doubt if i can have them again for the rest of the year. I MISS EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY=(
i dont like to study in the p.d. block. for some reason, its uncomfortable. first its worse than studying at home when you can do the most uncivilised things eg propping up one leg on the chair, and its worse than studying at the cafe or the canteen cause you cant really talk else you get slammed by someone's menacing stare just a few metres away in the room and you cant eat really nice stuff, just some small biscuits and it must be really quiet. i hate that. and third the silence in the room is rather unbearable sometimes. and fourth, COLD. but the fact remains that everyone loves to study in the P.D. block as it is reputated to be a condusive studying environment by our VP. kns. and i dont enjoy studying alone in school unless its at home so i just follow. sometimes i get tempted to play in at home oso so i try to avoid that. thats how choosy i am in studying environments.