today i tried to study but it wasnt productive. somehow the notes couldnt get in, i stared at the same questions blankly and im behind schedule by one chapter and this is only for one freaking subject. im so scared i cant do well for my a's and this thought always surfaces when i see some qn that i cant solve easily. haiz.

lately having quite alot of food binges, which isnt good cuz im not exercising but im consuming more. =( like today i think i ate 3 meals in school or something like that already. thats how i feel la. and my waist feels like it expanded by a kilometre and the school uniform doesnt help to lessen the impact. trying to cut down on my intake=/

its such an uphill task and at times, i feel rather despaired and feel like i cant go on with the struggle. and i duno why but everyone seems to choose a super inappropriate time to initiate meetings and outings. its just plain weird, seriously. i once told huai an that he was crazy to ask me to play badminton when i could have studied. then he said it was like i could have studied if i didnt eat. it does make sense, but then, i dun really agree to playing badminton, cuz i have my own schedule, for one. i play only on the weekend, and secondly, i want to play something that im really fanatic about like MS. aiyah. maybe i duno why, i get alot of people asking me to go out and play. its like every week hey you want to go out and do this and that? its really nice of you guys la. but i kiasu=X

thats all... im tired from the bad revision i did today=( er. after a lvls, dun worry i will become crazy, i assure you=)



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