I've finally concluded that the lesser responsibilities you take up, the happier you tend to be. Figures why bummers have lesser eyebags, good nights of sleep and get satisfaction in life over someone else who has to constantly worry over the smallest things and getting things done right.

RL-ing was never an ambitious plan to gain status or fame in wow for me. The reason why I did was because if nobody did, I figured everything would just go downhill and it would disappoint others who were interested, which was quite a pity. But I think after giving it a try, it was never a role suited for me. Coming from maple where people took boss runs seriously, I think in many ways I couldn't adapt to how my current guild functions. It mystifies, confuses and annoys me just how people treat an event that requires much coordination and communication as if it was the easiest thing to organise on the fly.

There was never once I felt happy playing the role, and having to do it with RL friends made me feel like I strained relationships. Of course, one should never mix their real life with games, but that's only politically correct. No matter how hard you try, people will still form their interactions with you based partially through the game, so i.e. this is bullshit, don't believe it.

If people go, yeah just do that, nobody asked you to do it in the first place - to those people, I daresay they have little or no experience trying to RL. It's not a glorious job. More often than not, you have to juggle with discontentment, people raging either in front or behind your back, and all the other little issues that aren't easily dismissed. The phrase "you can't please everyone" comes out in full force here, and there are really some hard decisions to be made, which further sours things.

I'd like to have my bummer lifestyle back, if you please. Just being a simple and happy girl playing her character, and enjoying her game without worries. And after complaining to my friend for the (n*100000)th time (sry dude for having to endure my QQing lol), I finally realised this is just the inevitable.




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