I just entered an entry onto FOP forum, but I'd probably do some full length review thingy on my blog. Or maybe not since I've already thanked the major people. But one thing I finally conclude about my entire experience with RnF is that,

People who helped out should be appreciated, but those who were really dedicated and came back whenever they are free; they should be the ones to be treasured.

I think after having long chats and sharing opinions with several people, I believe it's a common consensus. However, people are entitled to their own opinions, not just ours. RnF has always, and will always be a voluntary activity, and if people are unwilling to join, so be it because we have no right to force them.

Maybe it's because of last year's experience, that I carry this opinion so strongly with me now. I have always detested liars or people who are so flippant with their decisions because they seriously are a piss-off, and I mean it. Don't want to come, just tell us straight in the face that you don't want instead of giving some stupid "maybe" answer that wastes our time in trying to continue to persuade you, or giving the entire RnF team false hopes. Some obvious examples would be people saying "Oh I want to come down for RnF once I finish so and so", but in the end never come. Like, seriously, wtf. Not only do you lack the ability to be honest, people will see you as an untrustworthy person that they cannot rely upon easily. And yes, I'll be honest and say out 2 such people which is Colaz as well as TCO. If one reads the forums(this year's and last's), I'm sure it will not be an unknown thing.

Another eg is when it comes to persuading people to join Rag. We get excuses so corny that I sometimes cannot believe they actually resort this kind of crap excuse. "I will join if XX join", "I will join if you get XX number of people to join". Firstly, the people whom they quote to join usually are impossible to persuade, and the numbers quoted are like freaking hilarious. 10? You think so easy? You don't want to make it easy for us to make you join, doesn't it mean that you don't want? Then just bloody freaking say that you don't want. You have every right to tell us off for pestering you, but I think it's enough courtesy not to lead the Raggers in a wild goose chase. You know the situation they are in right now, so spare us that indecisiveness, we don't want that.

What's even more hilarious is that we even get people exposed. Some people said they wouldn't be able to join because they were FOW GLs. So Peipei, Cliff, YongXiang being FOW GLs and Raggers are excluded? What double standards people practise. Then when confronted, return to saying "he's very busy cannot come". Like ya... busy accompanying bf or gf, busy going for outing, doing their own stuff. You know, I have a bf, and I sacrificed almost 2 entire weeks doing float without seeing him. You think you can compare to that? Busy for outings, almost all the raggers and floaters sacrificed theirs too. Doing their own stuff, you think we don't have also? I'm not trying to compare who sacrificed what the most, but I'm just telling you basically to GET STRAIGHT TO THE POINT LAH, FRIGGIN HELL. We have enough sense to stop pestering if you guys really don't want us to.

I've been through camp and thought that it was bad enough with all the shit, what with people lambasting me as a useless manpower i/c that I don't give a fucking damn about anymore since it's over and mostly double-standard kind of opinions, but nothing has been more shitty than finding people's true colours in RnF. Thanks, thanks, and many more thanks. If you are one of the offended people reading this column, that's your problem. I know who I should depend on from now on, and if you think that you are right in every way despite what I've said about you, so be it. Even if the whole world turns against me in the end, I don't give a damn about it also because I believe that I'm right until proven wrong for THIS.

I strongly recall during feedback for camp, people commented that I shouldn't be complaining about stuff privately. Ok great, so don't blame me for washing dirty linen in public. They asked for it, they get it. And if people have been reading back to one of my past posts, I have said that no one in the right mind would actually confront the other about his/her faults or mistakes because it is always unpleasant and usually relationship-souring. If you think you are one of those people I'm mentioning(not from the comments), then from my entire post you will know how retarded that comment sounds. Do you feel pissed? Yeah sure enough. Feel like I'm some bitch that you should sever ties with? Probably. NOW do you get what I'm saying?

p.s. if you have ever contributed towards RnF in anyway, I AM still very grateful for it, but it doesn't hide the underlying truth, and we all know that.

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