I just finished reading the book titled "the five people you meet in Heaven" by Mitch Albom, and cried when I came to the part when the guy meets his wife again. It was when I fully appreciated how much it means to have someone I love deeply beside me, alive, breathing and smiling, spending the days doing things together. It was also when I feared of anything unfortunate that might happen to us someday, causing seperation.

I know that one day, all of us will grow old and die. I know that we console ourselves to live the moments while we can, that people will continue to live on in our hearts and memories as we go on. I still fear death deep down inside, if I bother to think long on it. The thought of not being able to be there physically, to savour the moments truely scares me at times. How much one would long to relive that very moment of love again and again and again.

Maybe someday when I get older and older, I will start to accept death naturally as a part of life. Not to say I'm rejecting it now, I can't but I'm still scared. For now, I'll put this aside and not think about it too much. Afterall, there's school tomorrow and I'm not going to screw up my life worrying over it constantly, quite busy for the moment.

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