Was browsing through songs to download on youtube today and got wrapped up listening to all those songs. Adele's songs caught my attention most and I ended up spending most of the day just listening, and googling out the lyrics.

Many of her songs in the album made me recall the past times with him. As I listened, the emotions started to swell up and my eyes got blurry. I should have stopped then, but somehow I just kept going on, as if I was caught up with the current and couldn't do anything else.

It has been roughly over a year. Do I think of him? Maybe. I wonder how he's doing once in a while. Do I still love him? Time has dulled the emotions enough. But I still cry, when I think back of the moments and how it all ended. It feels paradoxical, crying over losing love when I don't want to go back to it again.

Many around me have asked if I was going to look for a new boyfriend. My reply was always, no. But to put it more accurately, it's not that I don't want to be in love, it's just that I haven't found someone I want to be with at the moment. I have to say, I'm not really easy to talk to and am quite the introvert. Somemore the guy has to fit my "criteria". I wonder how am I ever going to find a guy this way. Haha. Maybe it's time to pray I'll meet someone in my new school (so impossibru methinks).

I guess it's always good to cry once in a while when you are feeling down, for whatever reason it may be. Feeling a little better now.

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