So after roughly 3 weeks of finding, I've findly secured a part time job for next Mon-Tues. If it goes well I'll get to continue it for the rest of my vacation.

This has probably be the most head scratching, anxious period of my life where I had to keep checking my emails and handphone for any new msgs, updating myself on those job forums to know the trade and all that shit. Now I know how it really feels to be unemployed and trying hard to seek for a job -_- It has come to the point where even my mother is asking me if I was going to just slack away at home for the rest of my holidays - something which I particularly dislike because I don't talk about my personal job huntings and activities to anyone including my family unless they ask me, and they end up assuming and gossiping behind my back thinking that I'm really slacking off. Since then I've told her directly to stop assuming the next time and just ask me if she had any questions about my plans for the vacation. I hope that would put a stop to this ridiculousness.

I finally got a call from the recruitment agency that I applied for, thank god. Interestingly the job's based in NTU, so I guess the environment won't be too bad. The pay's a little low (accordingly from Kevin) but I don't really mind as long as it's not too ridiculous.

Been trying to create a portfolio for the application to a diploma when I graduate. I realised it's not that easy after all. I'm not interested in a programming diploma, having gone through all that in SoC (which I obviously do not have the potential in it), so I was thinking of going into the game artist track. That would probably mean that I would be competing with accomplished artists that come from those art schools in these sort of things? Thinking about it gives me the shivers, especially when I don't even have a proper foundation for these things. I think the competition for entry would be like sky high -_- especially for those like the Digipen/Ubisoft campus program.

Perhaps this is not a surprise, but my parents were probably never supportive of my interest in this field. All my mother thinks of is that the pay is low, the work hours are long and it's a horribly lousy job that would not suffice for me. My dad doesn't say anything, but I think he may have his own reasons that would not say to me. Since secondary school, it has always been the case when I considered to go to poly to get a diploma in game art, they vehemently objected to it, even going so far to tell me there would be degrees like that in university which I stupidly followed by entering JC in the end. Well look what happened. No local university offers that kind of course that I want, and I was stupid enough to not do my homework and just blindly believed them.

At this point, I feel very angry for what they have done despite the fact that they probably want to do it in the best interest of their child. I feel disappointed that after so many years, they still go about the traditional way of enforcing the scholarly route for their children and advocate that these jobs/degrees are not going to help me in future when they don't keep up with the times and do some homework themselves. Sure, I don't expect high pay for what I want to do, I already know that it's not going to be an easy road (just my own stuff is already pouring the man-hours in especially artwork), so I think it's better to try myself since my parents are not really that enthusiastic in helping.

There's really a lot that I want to say on this, but I guess I'll just end it here. It's motivating yet depressing.

P.s.: my desktop just gave up on me. I think the graphics card is overheated to the point of no return. Hangs at the login page every. single. time.

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