I think my lifespan must have shortened considerably, what with me staying up all night without sleep for so many times this sem. Never in my life has it been so intense before.

Really tired now, all my other group members fell asleep leaving me the last one awake. I want to sleep too but I have to guard their stuff, if not gg. -.-||| Someone please wake up asap T.T I wanna doze a bit too.

First bg almost up. I still have some tweaks to do to that moving crap though. It just wouldn't fit the way I want to. (I think it's somewhat me nit picking though) And my laptop's not helping.... the GC is really chui. Just got to live with it till end of the sem. Still have to wrap up critique and hand it in for submission. Arghhhhhhhh this is hectic...

Really want to sleep. Like now. Sian.

I never knew people had such different views of me, compared to what I think of myself.

Oh heck it, I'm gonna doze. Whatever. -.-

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Thanks to a certain SOMEBODY *coughs* I decided to make a blog post. Not that the person asked me to make la. But since I'm back here, why not.

Actually I'm feeling a tad sheepish now 'cause I did promise myself that I would try to update every now and then, but well.... you see. *stares at previous post made in January*

In my defense, I shall explain that I have tons of projects. 5 actually this sem. As of now, I've just completed one, and another is due tomorrow, but we have finished preparations so all's good. That leaves a crappy GEK1531 essay (that has not even been touched yet), special effects, and the gigantic game dev project. Starting to feel the crunch, even though I have 2 projects down.

Consult yesterday saw some changes made to the game design. Not in terms of game mechanics, thank god, but in the number of levels we intend to use. I think on my part, and Wei Feng's part too, we were very relieved as it meant less work. Until they started to talk about backgrounds and I realised I was in for deep shit as I had to recreate another 4 new backgrounds while almost entirely discarding the one I did before. Kind of like how there's a sudden downpour when the sun is still shining. Yeah the super suay kind. And it's not helping that I have to do it ALL with that stupid moving background thing........ urgh so troublesome. But if I can pull it off, I'll be really proud of myself.

Major reworking needed for special effects too... -.-. I have to say after watching the lecturer's video on the behind the scenes effects, I was rather psyched to ramp up the quality of my special effects. But again, time constraints (and procrastination) make it really hard to reach for my goals. I really hope I will be able to deliver in time, and in high standard. And because if I churn out shit I will malu in front of the public presentation. LOL.

Was talking to LG awhile back, and he asked if I liked drawing. I replied, " If there is something you do in which no matter how tedious it is, you feel happy doing it, that means you like it." And well, that's how I feel about drawing. Granted, I do not have any background expertise (unless you count my crummy artwork during primary school drawing lessons) but I love to dabble with colours. I love experimenting on ideas, and creating the image that I feel would fit the mood, and provide flow to whatever it is supposed to contribute to. That's why I love my role as the assets creator in my game dev project now, despite how heavy the workload is. It is very well my first and last time in NUS where I really felt like I was in my element, just churning out piece after piece with average effort (i.e.: no brain drain feeling I get from solving maths questions or coding), and feeling immense joy looking at my creations. In fact, when I feel like taking a break, I actually turn to my game dev stuff and start to draw assets that I need later, and it really helps me relax.

I truly understand the joy of getting the dream job now. I am SO going to get that dip, seriously.

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Wheeeeeeeeee I'm finally done with the AI project. Honestly, I really think we are going to ace it and pwn every other team. Our own robot is zai to the point where it can deduce from situations far easily than me. Ironically, I was the one who came up with most of the inference rules some more. LOL

All in all, 2 days of hard work from Travis (coding the inference rules) and CY (calibration). Ok la I have to admit I think I got off with the slackest and lowest contribution of the job - documentation and QA for the robot evaluation + various other insignificant jobs like helping to comment on code... blah blah. Part of me me shakes my head at being so useless, another part of me say that's because you just aren't good enough -_-||| But I'm proud that at least I made sure the robot was zai to the point where it can virtually pwn any setup you throw at it =3

It was a huge pity that we submitted late due to cock-ups from SVN... which was totally unneccessary =( I do hope we can negotiate with the tutor because the changes we made to the 2nd version was just uncommenting code that we blocked out when running the stuff on our PC... bleh. Not anything very significant. Totally not worth losing 5% for -_-

Ponned 2 of my tutorials for this. Well not that I really want to attend them but... this had better be worth it. Haha. I can't wait for evaluation on Monday to see how the robot fares. We didn't have any chance to test it on any board or anything due to time constraints. So everything was all theory only which was very risky especially when our calibration wasn't perfect.

Friday's Deepavali and I totally forgot about it till someone mentioned the holiday when we were all going home. Now I suddenly have a free day which is very nice INDEED. Work done, extra holiday, what else could be better =D What's more I got an email from my Japanese Studies lecturer telling me that my group project ppr did well and she wanted us to go present it next Friday. A totally great end to my day =D

Think I'll make soba tomorrow, maybe go out with parents (and try my heels lol) or reorganize my room. Whee thinking about it makes me happy!

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Lately I've been having this inability to concentrate. Be it on work, listening to people, doing simple things. There's a sense of frustration that accompanies with it when I plan to finish some things but end up not being able to get down into the mood to get it done. Don't know the reason, and can't figure out a right method to make me concentrate well. Sucks big time. I can't concentrate both at home and in school -_-

Gonna experience a burning-midnight-oil week anytime soon... and I need to get my desktop up asap. So many things to do. Ahhhhhhhh. I really wish I could get school done and over with so that I can move on to doing things that interest me better.

There's a bubble tea fundraising trend in school now. While I'm an ardent fan of KOI bubble tea, I think it's really gone to a ridiculous state. Tons of fundraising activities start to pop up all selling it. I won't deny that it's a really good way to earn money given that KOI has high popularity and should I say, there's a high demand and low supply. But to sell it at a price of $3.50 per medium cup, that's almost ridiculous, and they are selling it every single day in school. If I weren't such a bubble tea lover, I would only buy it like, once a week. Exorbitant prices really turn me off sometimes but I'm always in need of a bubble tea fix. Arghhhhhhh. Hate this kind of things.

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The past 2 weeks have burnt me out like nothing. One deadline after another non-stop. Finally my last major assignment due is handed in already so I'm chilling a little, going home earlier when there's nothing to do, playing my DS, sleeping more... all that.

Well pretty sure after this week, things will start getting hectic again and THIS TIME, I have learnt my lesson. I will finish off my minor assignments this weekend so that I can have a headstart on the major ones.

Tomorrow is my first official AI project meeting, and guess who's the last person who joined us? Travis. Haha. When CY told me about him joining our group I was quite stunned, and my reasons for being stunned were proved today. He's really... quite... fierce. In the sense that he's really out to win the rest of the teams for AI. Haha but it's good la. I think the remaining weeks till November will be really busy indeed... to the point that I feel so stressed, I'm already reading up leJOS programming language to prepare for tomorrow's meeting.... =/

Just realised there's a world of emulators out there, so even if I don't have the console I can still play. The idea occurred to me when I was googling out videos to find a way to solve the damn sheep puzzle that I was stuck at. Nothing I tried works, not even those on the forums. =.= Oh well some part of me feels bad for the piracy, but ohhhhhhhh.... the joy of playing those games that are out of your reach! Makes me happy to think about it =D

Now that I have "some" time to myself, shall draw up a proper schedule to manage my deadlines. Off to do it now, toodles and have a great weekend guys =)

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Argghhhhhhhhhhhhh my GPU midterm is doubly screwed. I was so frustrated with my inability to write out the code even though I KNEW what I needed to do. It's that frustrating to try and grope around blindly, writing out and rubbing off the code over and over on the paper. And in the end, I handed a very sorry looking answer script that was mostly blank (for the coding parts) while emotionally shedding a tear in my heart ;_; please have mercy on me Prof Low.

Suddenly lots of money issues coming up. Desktop broke down, need to pay hp bills, school fees, money for outings, printer no ink etcetc... I can't wait for the year end to come till I can take out the money that I locked away. Underestimated the spending I'm doing this year. =( Shall cut down on my suppers and outings I guess.... anyway, I do believe I'm gaining quite a lot of weight due to this. Kns.

Currently watching K-on right now. Although I'm a sucker for fantasy/romance themes, this one managed to attract my attention and got me to sit down and keep watching it, which is an impressive feat. That and that it was so random and funny. My all time favourite is still Gintama though. Left with around 4 more episodes before I finish the 1st season...

Just finished and submitted 2 assignments due in a few hours' time, and decided to spend some time to relax. Makes me feel happier to chill for awhile in my own room :) It feels good to finally go home normally... like, going home when there is STILL bus service. Haha. What I lack is bubble tea to get into seventh heaven... will try getting it tomorrow? Tmr's going to be awesome: I only have stats lecture, no more lab for modelling, this week's even week so no japanese studies tutorial! More time to do my lab assignment for game dev. (k i sound like a workaholic...)

3am, nights all :)

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if people have been following my posts regularly, i supposed you would have remembered that i once said that i attended the geog lecture in which i chopped seats for a huge bunch of people, and ended up only 2 came?

that lecture happened to be the last for geog, and usually lecturers would give out tips and all that for the exams. so now it's the study week, and i have a friend who msged me out of the blue asking me if i attended that lecture and what tips did the lecturer give.

some part of me feels a little indigant, like what? she's not really that close to me and we've never talked ever since FOW last year. another part of me was thinking, aiyah just give lor, help a bit.

which reminds me back to the stupid event where i chopped seats for everyone and none came. it made me feel that going the extra mile was really not worth it when people know that i always chop seats for them but yet didn't really appreciate the effort by not telling me they weren't coming (so that i won't get stared at). so, no to those people who i take geog with, and since i don't feel that kind, sry hi bye friend, i suppose i won't give it to you as well.

actually, it's only for this incident that i'm like that. i think if it's other modules, i wouldn't have minded giving out the info from the lecturer lor. maybe somewhere down the road in future sems, i might be lazy and not go for the last lecture. *shrugs* then i'll just deserve it lor. i think that will motivate me to go for lectures regularly lol!

p.s.: to tell the truth, the lecturer gave close to no tips. but that will be for me to know, and them to well, try to find out then.

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I FINALLY FINISHED COMPILING MY JAPANESE STUDIES ESSAY!

words taken from 2 library books that have been flipped back to back, 2 sets of totally differently styled essays from my groupmates

multiple english corrections

multiple paraphrasings

total reorganization of points

i came home at 4pm and worked on it non-stop till 1am. now i have a terrible backache, i'm listening to a chocobo song on my music player, i'm damn hungry and i'm super tired.

i'll never volunteer doing compiling shit anymore. learnt my lesson. and now i can finally go sleep without the guilt that weighs me down all day because i haven't done anything yet. it's wonderful, having finished work and feeling some sense of achievement. now to wait for the last person to give her part to me and maybe everything can finish a day before the deadline!

oh yeah, the understanding universe term test shocked me, so many calculations. argh i wish i did more questions when i was revising the night before. hope can get at least a B.

XOXO

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I woke up 4pm.

No actually, I woke at 12pm. Then I checked my clock, threw it on the bed and continued to sleep for another 4 hours.

.... what a complete waste of my time. What's more, half of that 4 hours was spent awake and staring blankly at my room while lying on my bed.

Finally I dragged myself off the bed, ready to do work. Instead I stared at the computer, checked my emails... watched a gintama episode or 2 till 8pm, that was when I really decided I had to self whip my motivation and start doing SOMETHING.

So yes, I finally made a post on the Japanese studies forum (that hopefully counts as 1 mark to my participation in there). and then I went to bathe. AND NOW, I. MUST. START. WORK.

My group member called me up today and after a little discussion, I realised that the essay's not in great shape. So really really I should start work, gah. Please pray that I can churn out something awfully awesome that will make my tutor's jaw drop (or at least be impressed) AND hopefully I can integrate it successfully with my member's parts. Their's are pretty much.... screwed.

Nowadays, I realised that work really can't be done quickly when I'm home. Maybe it's because the environment is so different, you don't have peers doing work beside you. And maybe because I'm too relaxed at home. It's not very comfortable in school, and so usually when I'm there I tend to try and do my work to take my mind off sitting on a damn hard bench or with the horrid coldness of the club room. Thus, usually work speeds up by at least 200%. Unfortunately, I'm quite sick of going back to school day after day, especially on Wednesdays when it's my free day. That's because I hate the trips to and fro from my house to school, unless I'm planning to stay overnight in school.

Meeting bf at 2am after his work later. I'm glad that we are finally meeting.

XOXO

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Sloth, sloth, sloth, is there a sloth-less word in the dictionary? Think not.

Thanks to the guilty pleasure of forsaking the world of incomprehensible knowledge the professors brandish for the period of CNY, I have become woefully inept in doing my work. As of now, the lingering couch potato remains - think of countless hours watching manga, reading forum posts and some model's blog that I've discovered. If put to use fruitfully, I could probably have finished studying for my mid term tests scheduled for the next 3 weeks, finish my current assignments and tutorials, and even finish the ones the profs have set 2 days ago.

And now I pay for such indulgent freedom - by having to go back to school on my free day just to struggle coding for an assignment due this Thursday, and submit enough scope for my part on my GEK module project meeting on Thursday evening.

Guess it's a really lousy entry after my long absence. But hey, it's better than none! And this had better make your day dear reader because you have to survive on it for another long time!

p/s: I'm so going to take a 2 day celebration once I'm done with this bloody programming assignment. -_- It's like cs3241 - in hell mode.

XOXO

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Boring and dry aptly describes my first day of school.

As usual, the routine starts again with my Dad dragging me out of bed. I'd almost forgotten the sensation of being shaken to wake up ever since the last semester ended. Oh well, here's another sem of it.

Side note: Feel like having some root beerrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... ='(

Went to my first lesson which was 4247 (forgot the name) and the lecturer spent like, 2 hours 15 mins just talking about comp graphics basics, but on a very very detailed level. Eng chye kept going "wah this lecturer really give alot of details la". Anyways I dozed off once or twice. What a way to start my first lecture but I realllllllllllllly tried to stay awake and listen to him ok! Anyway the lecturer seems quite good, but it's a little early to judge.

Later went for Understanding the Universe lecture, which I don't know what to say. It's so boring -_- The slides only had pictures, which means we had to listen to what she said, but there also wasn't much content in her speech either. And her english was.... not very good. I can't remember the way she pronounced "faculty" but the whole LT was full of giggles when she said that. As usual, I feel asleep 30 minutes into the lecture because it was really too boring. Even the person on my right fell asleep too. And it's only the first lecture omgggggggggg!!!!!!!!!

Had dinner with the class peeps at Sumo House. Is it me or is the quality of their food dropping? -_-

Ahhhh so busy. Textbooks to buy, modules to bid for (just finished and I got them wa hahah. Now I have 7 modules and I don't know which to drop -_-), schedules to be drawn up, notes to be printed. Feels good to be back in school amazingly, at least I'm doing some useful stuff and keeping myself busy.

XOXO

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I'm not a Jay Chou fan but I've been hooked on 2 of his songs, because I think the tunes are really nice! And I like the way he sings his voice in high pitch, just too cool somehow hahahhaha.

Just had my project meeting and I left with a headache. I feel like a noob -_-. And I realise, I'm quite the introvert. I can't open up freely like how I used to anymore. Not only on this blog, but in front of people as well.

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Passed by Central Forum this morning and I saw a booth selling laptop cases with Japanese prints!!!!!!!

Was so excited, I ran to buy my Mac breakfast and quickly came back. Found a really pretty print but unfortunately, it didn't fit my laptop and the other designs were not too nice... :'( WHAT A PITY . The seller said she would enquire about other designs for the larger sized cases so that she could bring them the next time. Can't wait!

Whenever I have to go for my maths class at science, it ALWAYS RAINS. And when you are at the other end of school and it's pouring so heavily, you end up having no mood to go. Seriously, it seems like I have no affinity with my science classes...

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As much as I've said to many people that this module seems managable, but often I find that this module has gone beyond my grasp of it's logic and direction and has become so abstract that I have no idea where or what the hell I'm doing or studying about. There is never one clear cut definition of some terms, all we have are vague explanations of how it came about, how people view it as. Sometimes I even fail to see the relation nor the significance of the readings to some of the material taught in lectures. (I mean those that are assigned to the content that the lecture taught about for a certain week)

Somehow it seems that my classmates are getting a pretty good grip on what's going on. I mean I can understand it on the basic level, but if you ask me to make inferences, evaluations I don't think I can do it easily (I can do some, but not a lot). Maybe I'm not a really a deep person, I simply accept what I see.

This is my true honest opinion on this module: They should just cut the excessive wordings in the readings and just extract those essential sentences. In my opinion, just reading those few sentences are enough to grasp the basic concepts but somehow some part of me just feels that I miss out a hell lot of information. Well, maybe that's why they are called "readings". In some way, I think the issue of "culture" and "industries" is so huge that it's impossible to cover everything, which is also what the lecturer said. It's so big that I'm only clawing at the surface, maybe that's why I feel that I'm inadequately prepared for this module's exam.

*shrugs* Hope I can get a decent grade.

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Not done as of now:

All my tutorials, 2100 assignment 2, labwork, revision for ma1101r PS3.

*clutches head in agony*

MUST DO RAWR

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My day was supposed to start at 6pm, but then I decided to crash into another lecture slot so that I could have my Tuesdays free. I'm expecting it to be rather short lived though. Anyways I got a laugh when I saw Chris's look when I entered the LT hahahaha.

First day was relatively quiet, compared to the days when you walk back to COM1 and everyone's there. I guess it's good for me since I'm trying to settle back into the school mood. The best thing I love about having a day that ends at Science is that I get to take a direct bus with a much more shorter journey back to JE interchange. That's probably the only benefit I see out of it actually.

If one notices, there is no other module other than an arts one that is filled with so much noise. You would have thought it's a pasar malam before lecture(incidentally there was a bazaar outside that day, how apt), and probably so through the lecture (those people who took nm2101 will know). I've taken science and computing modules, and hardly any are filled with the sometimes unbearable noise these people make. Sometimes you just have to thank the PRCs and Indians that fill up the slots of other faculties, hur hur.

I can't say much on how my semester will turn out to be, but I think it will be a relatively boring one when game design is no longer here. Maybe PL1101E will turn out to be more fun than I hope.

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Oh GOD. I bidded for 3241 then Andrew told me the maths is hard. If he says it's hard, then what about ME!?!?!?!?!?!? Shit la sure die this sem!

I'm so *insert adjective here* *insert adjective here* UNPREPARED for school. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Update: problem solved. I'm dropping that module and taking up another to save my ass.

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Countdown to 2009 was pretty alright. Spent the night at Kev's house, watched the tiny weeny fireworks and forced him to eat a piece of chocolate when it struck midnight (just a sudden idea lol). Network jammed up as usual so I didn't bother to send back greetings till the next day. A quiet celebration, just the way I like.

The very next day we went to Sentosa with the rest of B gang. Had a nice breakfast before meeting up with them. Didn't go down to the water at all. Just spent the day trying to get dark but not sunburnt, played cards and chit chat. Turns out I hardly got a tan. Didn't know SPF50 is that strong haha!

My first movie of the year was right after getting out of Sentosa. Mel's mum got us the tickets at a very later timing, so we squeezed in Jordan's car and went to his house to rest (very tired) while the others played mahjong. It was pretty funny cuz Kev and Jie Sheng kept making fun of how Nat plays mahjong and everything lol

Ip Man IMO was nice for me. Ok, I'm a sucker for these kind of fighting shows, loved them since young! I used to watch those old chinese films shown at ulu timings on TV; the choreography is really nice! But it they must include at least a meaningful plot, not just brainless fighting hor (like those Ong Bak or whatever. It doesn't look like it has a plot in the first place) AND doesn't mean I'm violent hor. Kevin got for me the moo moo calendar from the combo meal! XD muacks!!! I thought it was those flipping calendars but it turns out that the dates and months were bricks that you had to turn, quite troublesome =.=

Finally reached home at around 2 plus am I suppose, and fell asleep right away while Kevin die-die had to win his 1st round in FF-Dissidia before he followed suit, gah. (he didn't know how to play at first lol)

Next day, we went to watch Ponyo on the cliff by the sea!! Omg it's freaking CUTE. The plot's a little too short (so easy to save the world one), but STILL, I would say it's good. Arrggggggghhhhhhhhh I don't even know how to describe the epic cuteness of Ponyooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! Go see for yourself! :D Even better was that the combo meal sold a moo-moo tumbler (which they filled with coke), so COOL. Then I happily bought the set and went in, only to realise I didn't get a straw and I cannot drink =.=

Had supper with Jie Sheng, Nianci and Dylan right after that. We walked one big round around the 334 route due to miscommunication and blah blahblah. At least the prata was nice and the curry was slightly sour and really spicy. Talked cock for awhile before we headed home and...

THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED IT WAS BIDDING DAY. Omg.

Lucky first rd is till 5th of Jan, heng. But alot of screw ups la. Planned my mods long ago already. Then when I wan to bid, got lecture clash. Then there was another module that was already overbidded wth. I checked with Chong Yee and finally got to know there was a freaking MPE last sem that pre-allocated mods. I always thought it was just a survey and didn't bother to do. So exasperated with myself. Fuck it, I'll just bid and appeal if I can't get them. What else to do right?

Now I'm looking for a UE to fit into my mod. Wish there's someone who can take it with me. It's boring to do mods alone but apparently no one's very interested in Arts mods. All taking those mods like Understanding Universe, Sci of Music, blahblahblah. I'm not a logical or maths person, I prefer those stuff that's closer to readings and text or crap. So not CS, gah.

My motto for my school life is just simple. To enjoy it like a simple and normal person, nothing else. I don't yearn for grades that awe people, I just want to get my cert, and graduate normally from university while I enjoy my life with all the buddies I made in school and all the events I participated in. I hate politics, fucking hypocrites and people who look down on me like I can't do well in anything ( If there's anyone. I don't think so actually, but heck I'll just put it. )

If I looked back in my previous sem, it wasn't a really good one in terms of friendship. I did regret it at some points in time, and at times I don't. I'm not a BFF kind of person, and I don't expect others to do so to me. I'm perfectly happy with sitting down together to study and have dinners late in the night, go for outings and everything, but I get very uncomfortable when people get too close for my comfort. I don't like people sending me back everyday like some escort unless it's on the way home, unless it's just for fun once in a blue moon. I like to take have time alone occasionally. I like to take the bus home alone sometimes too. I don't like having to tell people constantly where I am, what I'm going to do on an often basis and all of the above applies to everyone unless you are my boyfriend or my family. And most of all I hate physical touches unless it's those normal friend kinds like a pat on the back, a handshake or something.

I don't mean to outcast everyone that I know, but it's just stating my boundaries of how I define my friendships with people. I want things to be the way I want it, that I can control as someone who is free and not tied down by anything. That's why I feel that last sem was really terrible, it didn't follow my principles in friendships somehow and I might have affected others as well; it makes me feel bad. To make it worse, I hate being the one to tell people to go away or anything because it makes me feel horrid to reject them so I ended up tolerating everything and I'm not really happy. This sem, I'm going to try and make a new start and just live it out NORMALLY. THAT'S IT RAWR. Don't take sides, don't get into stupid politics that I don't need and live a happier life.

Ok I feel better now :)

p/s: WWE is a really brainless show =.=||| Even Kevin fell asleep watching it.

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Since it's the eve of Christmas and I don't have any activities going on, think blogging will serve to pass some time.

Not that I yearn to go partying, it's also due to the fact that I don't feel well even though I'm perfectly fine. For the past 3 days I had an everlasting flu and today, it was accompanied by a mild sore throat. Kevin gave me the panadol flu medication and it was ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING. It doesn't help that he kept saying "mama lemon mixed with water" while I was drinking down that vile concoction. I swear, I'll never ever drink that again. BLEARGH!

The wind's absolutely cold tonight, however it signals a warm night with snuggling in my bed with blankets covering me- absolutely delightful. Kind of gives off a Christmasy feel to it although I'm quite sure the streets of Orchard Road are a nightmare to walk in at this point of time, haha.

I got back my results for last sem. In fact, I was really really nervous when I was typing in my i/d and password. Sweaty and cold palms, yeah. Turns out my cap didn't change at all, which I'm quite ok for the moment. But I know it's high time to pull it up while I still can =/ I failed MA1505 AGAIN. Somehow I was both surprised and unsurprised. Weird contradiction, but maybe I'm just surprised that I failed a mod for the 2nd time, didn't imagine that. Unsurprised that I sacrificed most of my maths time studying for econs instead, so yeah. Quite sad when I think about repeating it again, and my parents didn't take it too well when I told them.

Well the great news was that I PASSED MY CS1102 WOOTS!!!!!!! I know when people fail a mod they are usually depressed, upset blahblhabah, but this totally eradicated any trace of sadness that I felt when I saw my CS1102 results. I. FREAKING. PASSED. WOOOOOOO~

Words cannot describe the terror inside me taking programming even at the start of my first year in Computing. It was, and still is a horrifying experience. I'm really sure I really do not have even a tiny weeny bit of talent in programming, honestly. I'm seriously, really damn glad to see myself pass, to the point where failing other mods are ok! Now how serious do you think my trauma is, you can tell.

Another cheerful grade to know was that the module that I worked so hard for, Game Design NM3216 got me an A-. Ok it's neither an A nor A+ like I hoped(actually fat hope), but it's close enough and I'm really happy. Shows that my hard work paid off! Luckily the lecturer Alex is doing this mod for the very last time last sem since he's gg to further his studies; he's a really great and fun lecturer and I would never forget him ;) For peeps out there taking Nm3216 this sem onwards, I would say, good luck and have fun. IMO the new lecturer Anne Marie isn't that great(she was his assistant for that sem) and well... if you take you will see what I mean lol. Good luck guys!

Econs and NM2101 turned out fine too ;) Ahh now I can enjoy the new year~ Merry Christmas and Happy 2009 everyone! This might probably be the last post I'll make for the year.

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I find myself blogging more often whenever I have exams coming up. (procrastination?)

I'm left with one last mid term for the semester, cs1102(which is today). And boy I tell you, nothing screws up my uni life than programming, not even retards that I've met. Somehow I can never implement whatever that is taught in lectures although I understand the concepts. And yes that's ironic when I'm a computing student, I know that.

Seeing Yanling struggling to answer the questions in past mid term papers reminded me so strongly of myself when I started cs1101. In fact, it was so similar to the point where I could even know what she was thinking when she answering some of the questions LOL. And now that I've progressed to 1102, I started to realise how great life was in 1101 (despite failing it once), not that I want to do it all over again (duh).

Maths turned out horrible although I did my revision for them already(4 marks confirmed, one more unsure, haiz). I'm not going to blame anyone for the fact that I had to work for the last 3 days of the recess week since I ended up agreeing to taking the job, leaving me no time to continuously practise my papers. I shall just take it as a lesson to be learnt and not be lured by money next time, although seriously the feeling of money coming into my bank account is DARN GOOD hahaha. I haven't had this feeling for so damn long lo. And now, I'm just praying that my econs paper will turn out fine too. Just an average score at least.

The grade for NM3216 grp project 1 came out a few days back, and somehow it was a rather huge shock for all of us because the lecturer was withholding the all the score(reflections, weekly updates and assignments) for the past 3 weeks or so, so it was a little hard to swallow haha. However if Alex released it earlier, we would have known about our mistakes(or more like my grp's designer's insistence on something not neccessary) and maybe, we could have gotten a better score. On the whole we fared average for the game, but comparing it to the highest scores in each category it was a world of difference. =.=||| Too speechless. And to make things worse, my reflection for that week was an all time low of 1/1.5 because I could only do it after my job ended and was rushing out the reflection. The debrief ended at 2am, and it was due 8am. Then I was dozing on and off while doing it and couldn't concentrate on the readings lol.

I guess it just spells a bad start to the start of the 2nd half of the semester. Sigh. Hopefully things will improve as the days pass.

P.S. I'm still trying to get back into school mode now. T.T

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